This afternoon I was having a bit of a clear out and came across some old photos; photos I’d prefer never saw the light of day again…specifically, photos of me in days past, heavier, fatter, unhappier.
They say that every woman has an inner fat girl trying to fight her way out.
In my student years and 20s, the reverse was true for me….I had an inner thin girl who wanted to make her escape and be seen by the world. Instead she was locked away, buried under too much travelling and irregular hours, too many late night KFCs and too many moments of thinking food could make me feel better.
Looking back now, I wonder how it ever got that bad…but like most things in life, it just crept up on me, unawares.
Until one day I woke up, with an epiphany moment; this is NOT who I am. It’s not who I want to be, it’s not who God made me to be. And from that point, I decided it was time to lose some flab and become the person I felt that I really was.
5 stone later, I’m still working on it and trying to finish the project….but it’s made me think recently about who I was made to be, who God made me to be. There’s stuff on the inside, that is still trying to fight its way out.
Perhaps we all have an inner ‘something’; an inner painter, writer, sculptor, preacher, pastor?
What’s your ‘inner’? What stops you from being who you were designed to be?
Ugly Grace 
Reblogged this on kingdomofus and commented:
What is your inner something. Check out this post by Paula Cummings
Great post Paula thanks for. I am struggling with my inner something right now. I to woke up with a epiphany. I realized that the only thing holding me back from my calling is myself
That’s interesting to hear! Sometimes, you just have to take a step of faith…and launch out there. It’s not always easy though! :/:
Paula ,
How very brave of you to do a ‘before’ photo , and how great you look now, and ————— how inspiring for many of us !!
And I thought the THIN man was trying to get out !
D xxx
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Gorgeous girl inside and out xXx